I Hate Myself

I Hate Myself

I hate the way you treat me

Making me feel worthless

Treating me like a nobody

Acting like you don’t care at all

Acting that I don’t exist

I hate myself in still believing in you

You can see me standing

Pretending that I’m not affected

Pretending I’m strong

But deep inside I’m weak

And slowly tearing apart

But instead of being angry to you,

I still believe that you would notice me

That you would perceive my thoughts.

And know that I need you.

I need you here with me.

To care for me and to comfort me

I ‘m aware that it’s impossible to happen

But my heart is still hoping for that day would come

And wishing you would look at me

Hoping that you would care for me

But I’m afraid not

Never will it happen